I’m supposed to care about E3. It’s pretty much the biggest gaming thing in a year. This is a gaming blog, I’m supposed to cover things like that. There’s a ton of cool and maybe not so cool stuff being shown. Heck, apparently, later on today (which would be Monday 11th of June, but you know what time zones are like), there’s going to be some Warframe-related stuff. On top of that, there was already a reveal for Anthem (which looks very Destiny-y and Warframe-y) and the vaguest mention of an actual Elder Scrolls 6 game, despite the fact all we saw was some mountains (so for all we know it could be Skyrim 2). There were also some other cool things and pre-announcements and all sorts.
But I can’t bring myself to be exited.
Okay, a lot of this is console-related. For example, there was a Halo game announced. I never played Halo but that seems cool. Might not be cool if it’s Xbox only. Anything that’s not on PC these days, I’m not interested at all, because I simply can’t bring myself to spend €300 or more on an XBox or a Playstation. Plus a new TV. Plus games. My laptop is doing okay, and I’d rather keep that money to one side to protect from catastrophes. Thankfully things have been somewhat okay and not very break-y lately but you can almost hear me tapping my wooden desk loudly and impatiently. I don’t even believe in superstitions and all that but I don’t want to piss anyone off.
Still, I’m not excited. The most I can muster is a “huh, cool” sort of thing. Fallout 76? Eh, okay. Samurai Dark Souls? Eh, didn’t Nioh do that already? Ori 2 game? Haven’t played the first one. Battletoads? Really?
Literally while I’ve been writing this, I’ve been told that Bethesda have announced a Skyrim/Fallout in Space sort of game. Which sounds cool, but that’s all I’ve got to say on it. Will probably have a Creators Club sort of thing. Will probably be very glitchy at first. Question is will it have Morrowind style RPG stuff or the far simpler Skyrim sort of style? I probably won’t even be able to play it until 2020 though, because it will be €50 on release or something.
It turns out that I’m lazy and cold and kinda hollow. And cheap. And unwilling to spend money on myself. I’ve gone beyond the point of caring. Heck, it’s nigh impossible for me to get out of bed in the morning.
I was supposed to start a routine change. Make my life better for myself. Expand my collection of games AND expand my world a little. I’ve been saying this for years now, but nothing’s actually changed. I’m still stuck in a house I hate, unable to escape, paying off other people’s debts. I’m still writing mediocre articles rather than trying to expand the Daily SPUF and get into making videos the way aabicus does. Frankly, the daily tasks of writing my five hundred words and doing the sorties in Warframe are one of the few things… the few things…
I was supposed be writing about E3. I don’t care about E3. I’ll find out about it all later on. Maybe 10% of it will actually interest me later. There might actually be some cool stuff. Who knows? Not me.
I’m sorry that this turned into an overly depressing thing. I know I said I wouldn’t write about my real life stuff back in January 2017, but I just needed to put everything into words and vent a little. Sometimes putting that on a place where other people may see it, altered to not be too horrible, helps a little as well.
Helps make my head a bit clearer. Maybe once I’ve done that, I’ll be able to enjoy all these game announcements.
In the mean time, I hope you all have a nice day. Look after yourselves.