Amazing

I am sitting here, in front of my screen, trying to decide what I want to write about. There are many, many choices. Many of which will probably be about video games. After all, this IS a video game blog. However, today, I don’t fancy doing that. Instead, I am just reflecting on the other week and all the things that happened. Things were somewhat hectic, other things were simply bad. But at the end of the day, I am still here.

That week though was a rather specifically bad week. Bad things kept on cropping up. I spent chunks of that week feeling very frustrated and anxious. During the breaks I had, I was so exhausted that I couldn’t do anything meaningful. Somehow, amazingly, I did manage my daily 500 words. Then again, these 500 word articles are simply a part of my life now. Almost as important as making sure I eat. But everything else just seemed to merge into a long river of troubles and problems.

The other day though, something else occurred to me. Sure, the universe seemed to hate me that prior week, but the universe is so vast and lifeless that, well, it doesn’t care. At all. We’re the ones who care. That train of thought led me elsewhere, mentally. The idea that I even exist, in a universe that is so vast that looking at the sky is akin to looking at the past.

The universe is so vast in so many directions. Almost everything that exists is due to sheer random luck. And, somehow, behind all that, here I am.

Let’s just take a moment to think about how I, or literally anyone else, got here.

I’m a human being with two parents (one deceased) and two siblings. I’ve lived in two different countries and gone to multiple schools, even earned myself a degree. As I’ve aged over the years, I have met and spoken to lots of different people, had thousands of different memories and millions of thoughts. Every little thing, known and unknown, has gone just the right way, just so I can exist as I am now.

When it comes to me being alive at all, we turn to conception, where just the right spermatozoa managed to make its way into an egg. The combined cells start dividing, and eventually turn into a person. However, that ball of cells doesn’t always make it. Pregnancy is dangerous, and anything can have an effect on a growing child. Any time while I or anyone was developing in the womb, something could have taken us out before we even started.

Let’s go back a bit. Go back in time, down the family tree. Snip off the wrong branch, and we could have gone any other way. That being said, any of us could go a different way. However, it’s worth looking at, considering that every single person in our family trees found a partner and had a child with them. All the way from your parents and grandparents, all the way back to distant relatives.

Let us go back even further though. Humanity, as we are now, is a blip in existence. It’s said that a Tyrannosaurus in the cretaceous period is closer to our time than it is to things like Stegosaurus. And during all that time, our distance ancestors fought tooth and nail not just to mate, but to exist in the first place. And we can go back even further, back before we left the oceans. Even further and we see a planet crash into Earth and become a moon. And at some point, in the very depths of time, neither Earth or our sun even existed.

Yet here we are, in a universe that is shrouded in mystery, while we try to uncover more and more knowledge.

I won’t say that any of this is a good thing to think about though. Yes, the universe is vast and uncaring. And yes, shit happens, a lot. But it’s not a conspiracy. It’s all just chance. Random luck in trillions of different ways. And that’s BEFORE we consider multiverses.

Whoever you are, it is amazing that we get a chance to exist and think about these things. Despite it all being so cold and uncaring. Our universe is amazing. Everything around us is amazing.

And you know what? I’m amazing too. We’re all amazing.